7th month

Annual affair, 7th mth praying as usual.

Hope papa n grandparents are here.🙏🙏

Incorrect Timing

Man always look at easy side. 

Always arrange things at wrong timing.

Changing home lightings.

Arrangements made giving us such a last min advice and came almost diner time. Leaving two folks and one sick woman to attend to.

So much after work cleaning which i cant even help much and hv to rely on them which you can expect how clean it can be after their cleaning. 

I can maybe only wait for another week before i can even force some strength to mop / clean the house🙄

A Week After Biopsy

Its one week and im still feeling the tinling pain in me. Went for my review and Dr wad surprise that my wound had actualy yet to heal which is not completely closed. Given additional 5 days painkiller and 1 week mc extension. Im told not to carry heavy stuff and she mention that hope the bleed will not be internally. 

Another review a week later but then after 6 mth another one to check if any regrowth. She said there is possibility😑. Hope not. She ask me again if im too stress and suggest that i write diaries so as to let out my anger / happiness / sorrows etc. She feel im overstress and guess im a person that swallow whatever likes or dislikes instead of sharing or voicing out. 😱 i suddenly feel she seems to have studied psycology🤔😂

Diary, a gd one which i use to write but stopped long ago. Does it works? Stress, every work have stress, even housewife do. Or perhaps a combination of work / family / friends?🤔 think i should start back writing it soon.

Bless that i will hv a fully recovered body soon.

冰白木耳

A dessert which we use to eat it hot.

白木耳 (white fungus) is good for smookers.

Those that dun like the taste when u consume it hot can try it in cold. Just cook it as normal, leave to cold and place it in fridge overnight.

It will turn to abit sticky feeling, remember to stir well before consume 😊.

 

The obvious difference of hot & cold 白木耳. 

Taste abit like smash agar agar. 

甜但带点口感😁

Enjoy~~~

030820 - After Ops

4th day after ops, and i still feel body aches all over, i tot changing away the doctors tight soorts bra would let ne hv a gd sleep but no. I still ache.

What is happening inside? Why like that?

The 3 tablet finished, no more painkiller, hv to tolerate the pain for the rest of the days😑

Too stress, they say im over reating to work. 2nd day after ops already touching my laptop😂... Really 工作狂. But no lah, i started to teach myself how to rest. I just want to clear my mails. Only 1 day i already got comjng to 300 emails to clear🙄🙄🙄. If i wait until i return to work i thk......... 

Ok, i admit im a workaholic. Maybe this resulted me with fibroids. Mood swing n stress affects thats what my doctor told me when i told her which industry im in. She ask me during my 1st consultation ~ could u be overwork or over stress?  Honestly, i dont know. Which industry do not hv stress? But true enough this industry in term of stress will be higher i guess. 

I started having my fibroids 10 over years back when im in my previous logistic film. Taken an open ops with high water retention and pain that resulted me decided to quit the job for a rest. With high passion in this line, i joined my current boss in new film after my rest to start and learn more on other sectors. 

10 overs years passed and i found new visitors coming and become tenants in my body. They even grows. This is a symptom that tells me my stress level growing. Hby ask if i want to slow down as this affects my health. I agreed it is but my learning passion yet subsided. This is a never ending learning industry and im still learning, thou im still working on what ive been working 20 years back🙄.  

Actually its a bit tiring as over 20 years, im still touching what ive been doing the same thing😑. But i believe, i will move on when i feel im really ready to. Hope this day comes soon. And hope my fibroids will slow down if not my hby will ask me to remove it soon.

Removing this fibroid is no joke. Which company will let u always mc? No doubt this is uncontrollable, but it sure affects abit on yr performance, hmm... 🤔 am i over reacting? Theres a saying, 公司不会没了谁而不能运作.

But 打工要有打工的样子啊, 不是吗😅