The Flashback

Killing times passes.. I thought that i won't be reminded of all those unhappiness again but after reading a friend's blog, the flashback starts... The day i receive the call & send him to hospital, heard doctors mention that they places tubes in his mouth & chest.. it pains us to see so many tubes in him. It even pain when we did not see any doctors helping to rescue him when his heartbeat found at risk of stopping while he is in ICU. Isn't it sad ? Yea !, doctors only good at telling the family members of patients "pls prepare for the worst" ... I can't really give up the scene i saw at home & in hospital. Not even when he was lying in his "big / comfort" home.

Recall the last pic i take with him was the one which we take at home using my hp .. the last longest speech / conversation that i have with him was at bro's convo at the cafe / canteen where he seated there for coffee & i'm paying for it... & as for the last closest moments should be while we're on our way back home where i'm seating just right beside him on board the bus i guess. :'(

Sorry.. i dun feel like typing any more of this.. it sours me.. making my eyes heavy.. i'm stopping here.. sorry for the incomplete............

The Inconsiderates

Below might let some of you find abit disgusting.. pls pardon me ..

Recently, i've met tenants fm our office buildings having very inconsiderate behaviour & all were found in toilets...

can you imagine someone washing their cups & just splash / pouring the water in their mugs on the floor of the toilet bowls ? Some even left urines on top of the seat of the toilet bowl before leaving. This is a ladies toilet so i don't think that its done by guys ? Well, am wondering how did the urine ended up there ? Squat to urine ? It couln't be as only the left side of the seat found with urine.. Its not just this.. I even met ppl after making big & smelly business & did not flush away cleanly or even never flush properly.. Your must be wondering what I'll do, choose another cubicle ? No.. i just clean it / flush away before use.. haiz.. too good ?? haha no choice cos other ppl might not do & you'll end up not enough toilet to use i guess.

Now... I realy can't imagine that i'm doing this.. i mean i'm typing this blog now.. cos i'm currently having my lunch here on my desk hahaha.. Yucks right.. 佩服佩服...哈哈!!

眼皮跳

今早,我右边的眼皮跳了... 代表什么呢?

民间有“左眼跳财、右眼跳灾”之说，所以很多人对眼皮跳尤其是左眼跳不在意。“眼皮跳”与“祸福”有关系吗？不少人“眼皮跳”后都会有这种想法！其实这是一种误解。我们平常抱怨的“眼皮跳”，一般只是短期、间歇性的，多是疲劳或是吃了刺激性的食物、药物所致。

为什么会引起眼皮跳呢？

1) 最近因某种原因引起心情不好，使精神处于一种彷徨状态；做生意失败或投资失败；心里总预示某种不良后果的来临引起精神不安，面神经受到某种刺激，如脑部有肿物、炎症或疤痕刺激面神经等

2) 眼部有慢情炎症如结膜炎，经常用手擦眼，刺激眼皮的肌肉等也会引起眼皮跳，轻者多与眼部炎症有关。

轻微眼皮跳只带来一些不舒适的感觉，不会造成不良后果的，经过休息后，多数会自动消退哦..

Meaningful Lyrics ?

Are the lyrics seems similar / familiar to you ?

人生有许多难关要过
自古是情关最让人难受
也许我命中注定情海中颠簸
为你我付出这么的多
却让我痛到有苦不能说
因为我爱你就像那飞蛾扑向火
请你告诉我爱上你是一个错
别让我失魂落魄遭了魔
解开我的迷惑收起你的冷漠
别在任性这样做
请你告诉我爱上你是一个错
别让我漫漫长夜守寂寞
伤痛已经太多心也早已伤透
我已不想再为谁去软弱噢~
请你告诉我爱上你是一个错
别让我失魂落魄遭了魔
解开我的迷惑收起你的冷漠
别在任性这样做
请你告诉我爱上你是一个错
别让我漫漫长夜守寂寞
伤痛已经太多心也早已伤透
我已不想再为谁
去软弱噢~哦~

Marriage

Saw news of marriage couples getting divorce recently.. It seems kind of common lately. Even some of my friends are in separations or are a divorcee.. Are womans now too workaholic ? or is it that Man now more 大男人? Nobody's perfect. Nowadays ppl set their targets too high & even when you choose a husband or wife..

Have you ever complain that your boyfriend / girlfriend / hby or wife no good this & that ? Will your forgive & forget after a bicker ? Theres a saying.. you need two hands to clap, to hold. Thats why you're married to each other. Did you take your vows during solemnization with eye contact or with blank mind only wish to finish it fast & accurate ? Wordings that hurt will be voice out unintentionally during bickering. Will you take the words in or let it passby your ears ? Tolerant , Forgiveness.. what else is needed ? Some seems to be know a bit, some unsure & some even choose not to know till now.

Came by an article, saw a tagline.. i think its a good one to share :
" 任何的不完美, 你越去注意, 就越不满意 " ....... so, its always good to forget ?.. or should i say choose not to know ? cos "不去注意, 就不会不满意咯" :D...

Foggy Days

This morning seems to be abit foggy than before. So warm outside.. our office aircon seems like not working today.. stuffy room haiz.. But.. but.. due to this weather.. i start to have a bit more conversations with our cleaner auntie.. hehe.. Is it more opportunities coming my way ?? :P

Rally

Went to MC's Diamond Regconition Mtg yesterday.. so proud.. i mean i'm proud of myself.. haha.. why.. 1st time i went there alone. Last time i'll jio friends to meet & go together to any of the function cos i scared i'll get lost.. Sounds abit timid yea haha.. Yesterday is an exception. Cos the people i'm meeting actually i do not know them very well. mm.. Due to last miniute issue, i hv to go to the ballroom myself..

I reach suntec convention hall & saw the others whom i also dun know very well but ever spoke before. Lots of first time yesterday. First time i went to the rally, first time i sit beside strangers, first time have a long chat with a stranger haha.. Get to know new friends there.. But due to my early bedtime, my eyes seems to be dropping since 8.30pm.. arrhh.. so dry & tired. Sleepy too.. erm.. luckily, i'm still able to open my ears to hear what the entertainer is talking. Good experience.. still a learner. Decision have yet to set till now.. see when will that be..

Celebrating Valentines' Day

Valentines' day is not only a day for you to celebrate with yr love ones but to keep in touch with yr long lost friends / buddies / kakis..

I'm glad that i have such friends. Simple messages always bring smiles to ppl. Whether or not you feel like forwarding.. Receive wishes since this morning.. long lost touch friend, new friends, web friends, etc etc.. wow.. its wonderful. Its kind of bliss that even if someone not celebrating will at least wish for you on that special day..

To all friends / buddies / kakis & etc out there who knows me. A very happy valentines day to your.. Have a wonderful day ahead !! Cheers !! :P .. ^o^ !!!

Everything

Happy Valentines Day !!

Everything - Wang Lee Hom

Time To Cheer Yourself Up

Time For A Break.. Enjoy !!

蠟筆小新 超級小氣大作戰

蠟筆小新 改變髮型記

Valentine's Day.. Again ? or Not Again !

Today is Friday the 13th.. Its a bad day that ppl always mention. To me.. everyday can be a bad day if you meet any unpleasant issues.

I find today a special day cos i actually help a friend. Someone not very close but always in contact. Someone whom i had lunch with at times & someone whom really care when even a simple header that i put up. Hope things are settled & do take care pal.

Its another VD tomorrow. What will i be doing ? Working.. After that ? .. No idea.. maybe go for my gym, maybe go home for chores. Hby is working & always work late on sat, so i guess its another normal day bah.. Ppl always say, nothing special tomorrow, everyday is VD. Yeah rite =.= '''''.......zzzzz ... Shall see what i'll be doing tomorrow after work.. Kekeke...

What A Lunch

Went down to bt merah to buy my lunch today. A little attitude that i get when i'm ordering the food. A little more attitude that i found from the food that i get. Fried egg with shell ! Omg.. I did not notice it till i ate it. The crunch is there & hurts my teeth. :(



With these attitudes, i still sees the stall with long queue.. so funny.. maybe its due to the food & price. I got it at SGD 2.50 with a meat, an egg + veg. Theres' always price to pay when you want to get cheap stuffs.. :P

元宵

元宵.. yesterday night is a day where you will see the full moon.. bigger & nicer yesterday.. Isn't it beautiful ? If only i've a balcony where i can sit down with a glass of red wine & Michael Buble's music on .... arhh.. wat a dream.. haha...

Nice shot ? Erm.. sorry, my hp cam is not as good so unable to get a nicer shot.. Guess its these best bah.. Hehe..

Again ?

Dream of him again. This time is with whole family. He is having his dinner.. what does this means this time ? Urging for a re-union ? Nah... what else ? what exactly he wanted to tell me ? Hungry ? Miss us ? Miss mum's cooking ? Arrhhh.. Stop Thinking !!!....

'New' Year Flower Deco

Our office cleaner auntie is so helpful that she tried to help out on trimming the flower & changing the water in the flower vase.. Unfortunately, the trimming went lower & lower & ended the flower as short like below :P :

Boss find the flower abit short & the guess due to the colouring of the flower that makes the water turn colour which requires to change water everyday .. kind of waste water. So he decided to get new flowers instead which he bought it today during lunch... His choiceeeeee =>

Erm.. What do you guys think ? :P...

"New" Year Lunch 09

Yummy Yummy !!

Yes, went to above restaurant for lunch today with boss. Initially is last week but due to his tight schedules, hv postpone to today.... the payer is "company".. hehehe.. no lou hei this new year, so just have a simple but ex lunch.. to me at least. Well, nice atmosphere .. guess its a newly open restaurant, not very sure cos they ask for contact details to leave behind & ask if we're interested to go for their grand openings.. thats why...

Ordered for a medium rare steak & cocktail (Long Island Tea) .. wow.. the alcohol is higher than what i've thought cos the last time i have it at Clark Quay the alcohol is not so strong... mm.. lucky my 酒量 is still as good plus i add abit of water in it.. if not.. i'm gonna drunk lo.. boss say i should order beer instead cos lesser % of liquor... Well, its an enjoying lunch.. cos i dun see the fierce / stern looking / quiet boss like what i see at office.... & also at least we didn't have it at the crystal jade restaurant which my boss had chosen earlier. Heng Arh.. !! lolx...

Headed to the florist later.. no .. not buying flower for me like wat yr think lah.... its for our company ok !!.. Its to deco our office.. erm.. ya.. now i understand why some ppl say guys dun know how to buy flowers hehehe.. ops.. ya ya .. but at least i see how he reject ppl when he really dun want something which woman normally don't woh.. Good lesson at least .. muahaha....

Although not drunk but feels sleepy cos very full.. haha.. Haiz.. eyes still as tired & pc still at that stupid new year mood.. Arrhhh.. When is our IT coming ? Urrhhhhhh !!!!!

Miss It Again

Miss.. miss it again.. I miss the chance to meet up with them... Ex-boss / colis waiting for me at siloso for bbq.. Unfortunately, hby came back late after work today having a severe migraine.. No choice, i got to stay home to take care of all.. Failed them again. There's always some issues when i've some functions going.. My ex-bosss will sure be disappointed again.. Its already dun know how many times i've rejected joining their functions.. haiz.. I'm like always not fate to functions.. Previous three were my ex-col weddings.. stupid chicken pox / operations & etc.. that make me miss their big day. :(

This year, not my year.. feel like arrows going downwards.. gotta buck up.. Gambade !!!!

Movie @ TBP

Brought mum to TBP to watch another Jack Neo's movie.." Love Matters ".. Friends say its funny .. some says quite interesting.. Disappointed.. last time i use to laugh alot while watching but today.. not much.. smiles - not much, cries - not much either. Its not that interesting as i know but i do understand why they classify as NC16 now.. Anyway, some how or rather the comedy part still exist although not much..

Its individual yes, i agree.. well, i thk they cut off some scenes as i saw during their promo trailers but nvr when i watch the movie. I feel sad when i watch.. so much impact.. i regretted watching.. i regretted bringing mum to watch it more. Its so real in the movie.. not the acting but the stories.. I scared.. was turning to see mum's reaction every moment when i saw the stories not right. keep observing.. so uncomfortable.. Lucky nothing much, not much & don't have much i guess.. Hopefully at least i hope..

BBQ at Siloso

I was being invited by my ex-boss to their company gathering at Siloso for BBQ. Although he did not ask me personally, i still appreciate it. I intend to go down as i always can't make it for the gathering last time. True enough the place was abit far as i think.. I got to wait for my hby to be back from work before i can join them for the bbq. Boss had aged, just wish that i can visit him more but i nvr cos i know he will ask me to help him somehow on my every visit .. kekeke..

Now, i'm still at home on this blog cos my hby is having his rest due to his heavy migraine.. I'll have to say sorry to my ex-boss again if hby still feels unwell later.. But i do wish we can go as hby & i hv yet to visit sentosa for years.. maybe we can also take this opportunity to take a look there... we shall C !!

Surprise Dream

Last night i've a dream.. Kind of abnormal or should i say it surprise me. I dreamt of my ex-co.. Theres a lot of ppl.. they're having kind of function & i'm there.. everyone was so happy looking with smiles & its a non-stressful atmosphere. Its so comfortable there cos i dun feel any politics nor any black face.. I headed to the nearest sofa & sitted down. Just beside me is the lady boss. She spoke to me, ask how am i but she kind of looks abit tired.... She's the first & only person spoken to me in this dream.. haha.. cos the next min, i'm awake as its my wake up timing.. automatic loh.. Lolx..!!!

So what does this dream means ? Missing the ex ? Missing the fun moments ? Looking forward a carefree life ? or its just only a simple dream ? Ppl say its the 4th one cos i'm always so tense haha.. am i ? Do i look like ? But yea.. at times i feel that i'm really too tense.. i dun know why.. but it juz came so automatically !! :P

Is it Migraine

Eyes getting tired often.. feeling dry & wanted so much to close it but can't due to work. Boss ever mention that i should consult the doctor but i know its just tired & dry thats all.. maybe its due to the long "eyeing" on the com that mkes it so tired.

Eye straining somehow causes me to get headaches easily.. its rather common cos my eyesight have been getting worst.. I'm a perfect eyesight person but gets blurred vision at times especially when i'm at the bus stop. I'll have to either strain my eyes or wait until the bus gets nearer before i can be sure of the bus number thats reaching. Even my migraine starts to come back.. too much straining of the eyes maybe.. time for a good rest.

Its rather common now on migraine as even my hby also gets it at times.. recently especially.. he gets tired easily & migraine with strong headaches too.. Chinese physician mention stress also causes migraine. Does that mean that i'm stress too ? what stress could i be having ? Stress on work ? Or ????

New Stall

Bought my lunch today from a new stall station at the canteen just below our block. Its a malay stall. This new stall is cleaner than the old one. Heard that they have been changed due to their "hygienic" food that causes some customers having stomache after consuming. Imagine flies flying everywhere when you're ordering & ants to be seen on even packet sealed stuffs like bread / cakes & etc. Glad that they have decided to terminate their contract after their last meeting held. No wonder i always see them coming up to the office so often lately.. so thats the reason..

Today's lunch is cheap. SGD 2 for a pkt of rice with fishcake, hotdog & curry veg. To me consider cheap cos normally malay stalls charge sgd 3 & above. So i was like a bit surprise when i gave them SGD 10 & get SGD 8 change back. haha.. maybe its also due to the food that i've chose. Now the new stalls have different menu almost 3 times a wk or sometimes daily too... oh ya.. selling beef too haha.. nice food.. but wonder how much are they charging.. I don't think it will be SGD 2 anymore with meat involve.. Lolx!! ^o^ !!

PC 罢工 !!

Our "IT" expert never show up yesterday.. I thought my pc will be ok today.. so disappointed.. its still sick.. haiz.. guess the operation defers.. gotta wait again.. hope it goes smoothly today cos pending jobs waiting for me after a day off yesterday.. arrhh... IT !!!! when are you coming ? If only i take up my IT course earlier.... :(

Deep Wound ...

Reminder.. hurting words.. swollen eyes.. thats what i get after a visit to my aunt place yesterday.. Everyone was there today.. Happy greetings , smiles came up once touching the doorstep.. but suddenly, there's not even a conversation after everyone starts to sit down.. So "DRAMA"... Why like that ? Entertainment starts .. laughter arouse after some questions brought up by cutie niece.. a little forgetful gal.. Questions & requirements starts.. the mum & dad looks abit unhappy.. i know why.. but better dont step in.. Moments later, one starts to feel tired.. can see.. & minutes later, everyone starts to leave except us cos hby is still in a conversation. Cutie niece said goodbye to me.. I request for a hug & yes.. she give me a sweet hug.. arrhhh.. so sweet.. hehehe..

Sad things brought up during the chat after they left.. Bro say i should hv left with them but.. how to .. when one is still having the conversation.. I know that she wants to vent out her anger, fustration & sorrows after keeping it in heart for so long.. I'm also waiting so much to know whats wrong between them. So i stay .. just to hear the story that she wished to say / tell us.. I know mum will not be happy or might even thk likewise.. anyway, its just once a year.. just let it be ...

Arrows starts pointing out.. and slowly diverting to me... I don't blame her but just don't feel comfortable.. When you didn't do anything wrong but get blame for nothing.. Actually, she shouldn't be bringing out my late dad again at this moment.. making us feeling sad again.. Just don't know why. Why at this time.. Its new year.. we should be happy & not in this emotion. Control.. i tell myself.. its so unbearable. This the 2nd time that i tired to control so hard, the last time was years back during younger days when my dad cane me till bleeds.. Bursting out the moment i steps into the lift after leaving the house. Till then i know.... 还是放不下...:( ... Deep inside me is the wound.. the unforgetable wound....

Blink Blink !!

Get to see my DIY new year nail polish... simple but nice... blink blink... !! Its still so lasting since i last put on new year eve.. kekeke.. oh ya.. dun bother abt the ugly & old haggard looking foot arh.. muahahaha..