Reminder.. hurting words.. swollen eyes.. thats what i get after a visit to my aunt place yesterday.. Everyone was there today.. Happy greetings , smiles came up once touching the doorstep.. but suddenly, there's not even a conversation after everyone starts to sit down.. So "DRAMA"... Why like that ? Entertainment starts .. laughter arouse after some questions brought up by cutie niece.. a little forgetful gal.. Questions & requirements starts.. the mum & dad looks abit unhappy.. i know why.. but better dont step in.. Moments later, one starts to feel tired.. can see.. & minutes later, everyone starts to leave except us cos hby is still in a conversation. Cutie niece said goodbye to me.. I request for a hug & yes.. she give me a sweet hug.. arrhhh.. so sweet.. hehehe..
Sad things brought up during the chat after they left.. Bro say i should hv left with them but.. how to .. when one is still having the conversation.. I know that she wants to vent out her anger, fustration & sorrows after keeping it in heart for so long.. I'm also waiting so much to know whats wrong between them. So i stay .. just to hear the story that she wished to say / tell us.. I know mum will not be happy or might even thk likewise.. anyway, its just once a year.. just let it be ...
Arrows starts pointing out.. and slowly diverting to me... I don't blame her but just don't feel comfortable.. When you didn't do anything wrong but get blame for nothing.. Actually, she shouldn't be bringing out my late dad again at this moment.. making us feeling sad again.. Just don't know why. Why at this time.. Its new year.. we should be happy & not in this emotion. Control.. i tell myself.. its so unbearable. This the 2nd time that i tired to control so hard, the last time was years back during younger days when my dad cane me till bleeds.. Bursting out the moment i steps into the lift after leaving the house. Till then i know.... 还是放不下...:( ... Deep inside me is the wound.. the unforgetable wound....
